One day

God will give us the opportunity to be at least, be just friends again....

I'll never stop praying.

MIKEY!

AHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!! Hi!
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!!

Mikey and Jessie.

I remember why I liked Mikey now.
And why I feel so close to Jess.

They reminds me so much of Yell and I when we were together.

Ok.... This blog exists to keep secrets! HAHAHAHAHAHA
Secrets I want to tell but nahh lol

I know this is stupid. I haven't let go yet...
it's so pathetic...
That's why its here lol
This exists to hide my pathetic and stupid rants that WILL degrade myself to the universe.......

I don't know...
I still wonder how he is doing every single day and thinking of what if's...

Like, what if I am still talking to him right now..
Or what if... I can still see him... even just on facebook.

What if I can see him right now, even just as a passer-by.

How it's going to be like....

What if we're still friends...

Is it going to change everything?

What if I controlled all my feelings before and hid ALL my emotions and try my best to keep the friendship... just like how Mikey is doing.......

Is he still going to be here..................












fgcsvdbfuGADSJGfvsgfvKGAVDguSFVH!!!!!

MaiQui, stop.

I don't want to fix and try my best to keep anything anymore.
I will not take care of anyone or anything. Ever. Not until I feel like they really really REALLY deserve it.

I will keep on running away and will never tell them any reason why I'm ignoring them till I feel like it.

AHHHH!!! No, that kind of act doesn't glorify God........
AHhhh.... Lord it's hard..........

You know what I've been through to learn how to love myself....
hmm!!!

God....

Cutie Big Brother.

Satan just used you as one of the biggest bait don't you know that?
hah.

I don't know, maybe I should keep on doing it...
'cuz there's no harm that's going to be done...

You're my brother anyways and you can help me move on ;)

No no no.
I promised myself not to have ANYTHING with anyone this year.

And that is not possible because he gots the other chicka who is my sistah in Christ too.

Oh Lord.

He knows my weakness way too much.
Lord take the enemies away from me...

I want to succeed and I want You to move in my life and do whatever You want with my soul.

Lord please take away EVERYTHING that is getting in the way.