Saturday, September 22, 2012

Was it because I become too dependent on God?

I gave everything up to Him.
My dreams, my life, my everything.

I lost it all and told myself that God is enough.

God you promised...
I'm 20, when?

My impossible dreams.
You said you make the impossible, possible.

I used to say that only I can do that, I trusted in You.

God, You said You would be there... I know You see me everyday dying to live with my impossible dreams.

I don't know anymore God.

Old Myspace & Music Page

So, I just saw my myspace again after a really long time.

Seeing what I am writing, seeing how MUCH of a FIGHTER I am.
I remember typing all of those things about NEVER giving up.

Then, seeing myself now...
I gave up in life.

I gave up on my WILDEST dreams...

I WAS so determined.
I'm such a fighter. I gave my all....

I don't know what made me stop and lose all of my strength.

You know what, I'm going to start fighting again.
I am going to fight again.

I will fight for my dreams. AGAIN.
I will do WHATEVER IT TAKES, AGAIN.

Just like before.


"I'm MaiQui
I'm an aspiring Singer & Designer.
I think I'm done disappointing myself
& it's time for me & the world to be amazed.
I promise myself that I'm going to practice till I get better and reach my dreams :) "


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I wanted to reach my dreams too.

Ever since we met, I always see my dreams being chased by you. I've always been inspired that if you can then I can too.

I never thought anyone from my crowd can every achive their dreams, but when you came in to my life, I saw how much I REALLY can live with my impossible dreams.

I want to be fearless again, and take every chances.

I'm tired of being your fan and being in the crowd.

I've always wanted to be on stage and work hard for my dreams.

I just don't know how...
I mean, I know. I've always known. I know that I can.


I used to have all the help and motivation, I was almost there.
But not like you. You have everything you need right in front of you. Of course every single person have a lot of discouraging people around them.

But you always find yourself people helping you sooner than you think. You don't give up because you have a family that doesn't give up on you. They may not belive in you in the beginning but in the end they would no matter what.

Me, even if I worked my butt of no one will ever help me. All I will get is more and more and more discouraging events.

My family's comments, no place to sing, no enough equipment, NO CAR to use to go to places and perform. NOTHING.
I have no resources that can help me reach my goals.

IF ONLY I'M BACK IN THE PHILIPPINES.

Just let me go.

I know, it may sound stupid and unrealistic.

But I just really wish you have faith in everything that I do, and just let me live the way I wanted...

I don't want to marry you someday regretting every single chances that I didn't take.

If I fail, at least I could tell myself that I tried.

I miss the old me.

Just let me go.

PLEASE.

Let me chase after my dreams...