Thank you for your heart tho...
Thank you so much...
I am sorry that I am this way...
I wish I can be stupid and brave again...
But I don't want to risk anything anymore...
Thank you so much...
I'm sorry that I can't tell you that I am sure of you...
I'm sorry that I can't tell you that I can fight for you...
I am so sorry...
I always try to pretend that I am strong.
I always try to pretend that I am independent...
But I am just a helpless little girl...
I am so sorry B...
I am so sorry...
I want to but I am scared...
I am so scared to have my all be treated as trash again...
I am so sorry...
I am so sorry that I am terrified...
Sorry...
I gave all my chances to the wrong people... now I have nothing left to give...
I am so sorry...
I want to take the risk...
But I was so sure before with two people already... the first time was a valid mistake, the 2nd one was pure stupidity...
What if I am being naive and lured again...
I am not saying that you have some plan to dump a huge crap on my face just like them...
But everyone have good intentions at first... then when I run out of things to pour out... when I start to ask for the same love that I pour out on them...
When they get to see my core...
They all leave...
What if...
That happens again...
I am so terrified...
Brian, I am so sorry...
I admit, I did give a little piece of me for you now... but I am sorry that I don't think I can ever give the same love I poured out to the other people I loved with my all to you...
I am sorry...
Brian, I am scared that I don't think that I can ever trust anyone the same...
I am sorry.
I am sorry that I don't think that I can ever give the same anymore...
I know its been a year...
I should be healed...
I am sorry Brian...
I moved on from my past...
But the wounds are still all here...
I'm sorry...
So sorry...
Please if you can...
Please stay patient...
Thank you for being there...
Thank you for caring a lot...
Sorry that I am this way...
