Hi Lord,

2 years na grabehan.

Sorry ha...

Pano ba to...
Pano ba magpatawad...

Grabe Lord....

No matter how much Brian loves me.... I just can't anymore...

Kung titignan how much I loved Yell, compared kai Brian.
Kung ano man meron ako para kai Brian wala pa sa kalingkingan ni Yell...

Nde naman ganun kaspecial si Daryl.
Super huge waste of time xa.

He is selfish.
He is self-centered.
He is super immature.
He is super egoistic.

Lord grabe....

Please take all the pain na...

Simutin na natin lahat please...

Sa ngayon okay naman na ako eh...

Ung mai mga bagay lang na nagpapaalala saken...

Tulad nung ngplay ung "When God Made You"

Naalala ko na nung gano kasaya...
Kung gaano lahat parang finally umaayos na...

Nahanap ko na matagal ko ng hinahanap...
Finally I can let my guard down, finally I can trust someone that will never leave me...
or ever tatratuhin mako parang basura...

Alam mo un, everytime someone shares na, wow they've been in this relationship for 3 years or even 5 years and how perfect it is and how everyone is sooooooooo kilig about it.

Ako naman si, you are so stupid. 5 years? 6 years? they will cheat on you soon.

Then they will explain how ideal their romance is....
and there's me going... oh yeah???

For me, mine was my best friend, then my boyfriend for almost 6 years.
Everything was so perfect.

Godly?

Yeah! We actually tried.
I bet you guys are "trying" to be godly too.

We even planned EVERYTHING together.

FOR SURE.
Yours will fail.

I find no good thing in your short lived happiness right now.

What happened??

He got selfish.
I tried to see if I can have something real.
Someone who would think that I worth everything.

Then BOOM
Everything that I thought was the complete truth, is an absurd lie.








God...
Please heal this area of my life...
I don't want it anymore...

Its not fair na si Daryl, pistang pista sa buhay habang araw araw nia qng inaapakan.

Tas ako lagi na lang nagpaparaya....







You know Lord, if si Brian nga talaga is the man you trust to handle my heart, Lord...
this is not fair for him....

Brian deserves so much better...




2 years na at mahigit na qng takot.

super duper patient ni Brian Lord...
please wag na nia waste time nia saken...
if nde naman pala ako for him...




I want to love him too if okay lang sayo Lord...
pero ubos na ko...
ubos na ubos na ko...



& I know Brian knows that...
& grabe he is still here.......


Still giving me the world....





Lord....
thank you for listening nga pala ha......


Alam ko din naman na pinili kita over Daryl kea ngyari un....
I am just asking for healing Lord....

Also para kai Brian...
kung nde naman xa, Lord please wag na nia aksayahin oras nia saken....


nde fair sa knea....




super grabe nia ko love na wala naman ako nabibigay...




Can I just love you forever Lord ng walang other boys na asungot lol....
buti ka pa Lord......

You're the only thing that's keeping me together Lord.
Salamat.

& sorry kasi lagi kitang sinasaktan...

Pero sana alam mo na mahal na mahal na mahal din kita Lord...
More than anyone.

Thank you kasi lagi kang nakikinig....