TOTALLY NOT READY.

YOU MISTER!
is TOTALLY!! Not ready.

The way you talk, I can totally sense you and I can really see why the Lord wants me to let you go.
I really have to learn how to let you go.
I really have to learn how to actually forget about you.

You are so complicated and the way you are right now especially with the Lord.
Ugh, NO.

I used to feel that I was ready, but now you are pulling me down.
To be really honest.

I don't know how to direct you back to the Lord but you are not there.

Its like the more I catch up with you, the more I feel guilty and farther away from the Lord.

You know how MUCH I care for you and I want the Lord to be the center of your life again.
I want to let you go...
I want you and I to find God... again.

I'm losing it... and the way that I can see you now...

To be honest, you're not really the same anymore and I don't want to be one of those people whose like "Oh, they're still the same person inside. I'll be here till the end"

'cuz you know the Lord gave me promises if I obey and really surrender you.
It was pretty legit.

I love you but I have to let you go again...
I'm getting there again.

I know it's kinda weird cuz ya know since we're just TOTALLY friends right now...

it's just, I don't want to be lead by emotions towards you
I don't want thing to happen according to my own will and deprive myself or ourselves to God's will.

I don't know......

Surrender it again...
Surrender it over and over until it's ALL completely surrendered.

I will give it, it will happen.
I will do it.

ALL FOR JESUS.