I'll give him few more months.

If I'm still not back on track and if HE is not back on track by the first few months of this year,
then I have to end it.

And end 2013 without him and be reunited with God
and let God lead me to that man that loves HIM more than he loves me.

The man who would rather leave me crying and break me,
than risk our relationships with Christ.

I want a man that whenever I am around him I feel like I am with Him too,
not feeling all guilty and making me wanna choose between God or him.

I don't want a man that is working on his faith still, I want a man that is READY.

I want a man who is not going to call me a NUN or say that my life has no direction anymore because all I do is for the church. I don't want to balance my life and I want to give it ALL to Him and let HIM balance MY LIFE.

I don't want to be a man that makes me happy,
I want a man that just simply leads me towards my one true Love.

I'll give this man that I am with few more chances,
If there is still NO CHANGE by Winter Retreat, I'll start thinking on how to end it...
and pray REALLY HARD and never comeback and be with Jesus ALONE.

If he can't go then, it's a sign then... that there is no point.
If a man can't grow closer to Jesus with me, then we can never be together.