But I promised myself that I will not say it not unless I am 100% sure you are GB.
"Just promise me, when you miss me, soak in His presence."
"Delete all of our messages, delete all of our pictures. When it is time and the Lord allows, this is only a season and we can make more memories together. These won't mean anything"
I am going to miss you so much.
I love our companion.
But we are not ready that is why we get tempted and stumble.
Anything for Jesus.
But I guess I understand.
Namimiss na kita, sasandali pa lang kita nde nakikita at nakakausap.
Sa totoo lang feeling ko nde tayo eh.
Gusto lang kita
Gustong-gusto.
Mejo napapamahal na din.
Pero feeling ko nde tayo sa huli.
So tama naman na siguro to, bago pa magkasakitan.
Actually, nasasaktan na nga kita eh.
Sorry ah
Sorry talaga.
Mapagsasawaan mo din ako, makikita mo.
Tulad nilang lahat, mapapagod ka din.
Let us analyze the problem.
Omg, I feel like a high schooler thinking of relationships. I am freakin 23. Whatever, my blog, my life, my thoughts, dont judge me.
Anyways.
LOL.
We are friends yeah, 'cuz we are not together.
We are def not even friends with benefits, 'cuz there is zero benefit on this. Physically LOL.
We kissed once in our life LOL.
Just once.
Wait Christmas too, but for like 2 or 3 seconds. Real quick.
Okay fine we kissed 2x in our life.
Then whenever we are alone, we hug a lot.
Like hug. And kiss on the cheek only. Maybe neck LOL and he will bite me. LOLOLOL
OKAYOKAYOKAY
It may not look AS BAD as what the world would perceive it but our hearts are attached now................. in some way...
Yes we do fight it sometimes but we are super close now.
We even hold hands when we can.
Friends don't do that.
Friends don't say goodnight and good morning to each other everyday and tell them about their day.
How can Brian and I be PLAIN FRIENDS.
What are we rn then.
Dating? Nah.
Well maybe ://
Patay.
2015 JUST JESUS!!
The Lord have great plans for both of us this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Solo flight na xa sa SBS, KP is leaving it to him na.
Worship leading na ang peg ko.
Leading group D.
Leading Multimedia.
Leading life na ang peg namin dalawa ni Pastor Brian.
Brian have a piece of my heart now...
& I have a piece of his now too...
Okay, let go let go let go.
Friends.
Let us start with no more holdhands ever.
No more kisses EVEN CHEEEKS!
Oh man.
I want one on ones.
Okay okay.
No more of that. Friend.
STOP BEING STUBBORN MAIQUI.
Stop with the goodnight.
TONIGHT IS THE LAST GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!!
LORDDD😭😭😭😭😭😭
Good morning too...
Meaning I will be mean to him again then he will get over me then bam! Friends na kme!
I don't know I don't know I don't know.
😭
Mejo, nahuhulog na ko sayo.
Patay.
You're wise.
You're honest.
You have this genuine heart.
You have this servant heart.
You have this heart that LOVES Jesus!
You're confident in God's Word
You're bold
You're strong
You love to pray and your prayers are always on point.
Oh man.
You struggle but fight to please the Lord at all cost.
You help me understand when I am deceived by my own desires.
You know how to snap me back to where His voice is calling me into.
Brian Claros, patay. Lol
I need to learn how to be just PLAIN FRIENDS with you. Ugh Lord!!!!!
HOW CAN WE FRIENDZONE IT ALL.
You care for people way more than yourself.
You care way too much and hates recognition. You give and never ask for anything in return.
HUMILITY ON POINT.
I am blessed to have a friend that hits my head when I need to because I am fishing for answers in God's word lol I am blessed o have someone who can help me hear His voice clearer.
I am blessed to have a friend who loves to pray & cares for me a lot and asks nothing in return.
One day.
Maybe.
In Gods time
I don't know what to do with you.
I really hope you don't think that I am just stringing you along and you are not just a guy that I let to buy me things and say nice things to me.
I don't want to say it, I don't want to claim anything but I hope you know who you are to me.
No, I don't want to hold you dear because that is what I want for God and I to have and such.
But I hope you know that you are special to me. No, it is not because you buy me things. I will pay and force you to not pay for me to show you that it is totally not about that.
You are for sure one of the most special friends that I have at church.
I sure do have a lot of fear in me but I hope you know you are not like the others in my eyes.
I wish I can tell you how special you are to me, I wish I can do anything and everything with you.
But I really hope you know.
I hope I am showing enough.....
I hope I can surrender now.
I love talking to you
I love having you around
I wanna tell you about my day
I wanna hear about yours
I don't know what to do.
But I will continue to pray that we won't completely give in till the Lord says we are ready.
