Brian. Brian. Brian.

I don't know what to do with you.

I really hope you don't think that I am just stringing you along and you are not just a guy that I let to buy me things and say nice things to me.

I don't want to say it, I don't want to claim anything but I hope you know who you are to me.

No, I don't want to hold you dear because that is what I want for God and I to have and such.

But I hope you know that you are special to me. No, it is not because you buy me things. I will pay and force you to not pay for me to show you that it is totally not about that.

You are for sure one of the most special friends that I have at church.

I sure do have a lot of fear in me but I hope you know you are not like the others in my eyes.

I wish I can tell you how special you are to me, I wish I can do anything and everything with you.

But I really hope you know.
I hope I am showing enough.....

I hope I can surrender now.

I love talking to you
I love having you around

I wanna tell you about my day
I wanna hear about yours

I don't know what to do.

But I will continue to pray that we won't completely give in till the Lord says we are ready.