B.

If you're him.
I am totally not ready for you.

Sabi na ngang I was not ready for you pa eh.
I prayed that if the Lord could never show his face to me till I am ready... Or maybe never 'cuz I don't think a man like you deserves a mess like me.

So sorry Lord.
So sorry B.

Lord please claim victory over my life Lord.
I am tired of getting defeated.

Help me Lord how to serve you right and live for you as you want me to Lord.

Help me hear your voice...ugh and obey it.

Lord...
So sorry...

I pray Lord that B is staying strong and na move on na xa...

Ako din...

Kasi as for now...
Miss na miss ko na xa.

Wala pang isang bwan Lord.

Pero mag-iisang taon na kme ni Brian Lord.
Tapos na kme eh.
Enough na...

Ayaw na nia saken.
I bet Brian is better now.

At peace na xa with the Lord.

Ugh.........
I will be better.

I depended on his constant reminders to do QT. To do OSL, to be on point on my Jesus game....

I depended on him on how he keeps me on check and on how he rebukes me and snaps me back to reality when I am frustrated.

I am so sorry Lord, all that belongs to you.

Lord.
I miss Brian.

But I will continue to let go...
I am sorry Lord.

I am sorry if I am hurting you rn.
Eto lang honest feels ko.

I need you Lord.
I need your help...