Hi blogger.

Got them strong emotions again.
So I come to you again.

Oh you know its all about dem boys again.
Cuz I am thirsty.

I just wanna let it all out...

This one is for Yell...
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Hi Yell...
Miss na kita... its been a year...
Honestly I am still mad at you...
I still don't know how to really end it all...
I still don't know how to completely forgive, cuz Yell... till today I cry because it still hurts a lot...

I just want to remember all of you and not hurt... to remember Tita, Tito, Bin, Tux, Diva & you without hurting...

I am hurt because I have to cut them off too because I am so mad at you...

I've been trying to let it go and show the same grace that the Lord gave me but I just can't cuz I can't accept how much BOTH OF YOU disrespected me. ESPECIALLY HER.

Its been a year and it still hurts like hell...

I even let go of baby boy... just so I won't have any connections with you anymore...

Not even friends, not even Mitzi, not even your mom, your dad, Karen, anyone that tries to reach out to me that reminds me of you and the old us.

Not even Ate Annie, Jona, Erika, Emily, Tito Eric, Tita Loyola...

Everyone. I don't wanna face it...
I don't want to see anything...

I did my best... I am doing my best to forgive every single day...

I am doing my best to be healed...

I moved on and all but the damage is still here... I just wanna be completely restored Lord :"((

The Lord promised complete restoration and I trust Him with that.

Its been a year and I am sure better but I miss your family, I miss our dogs and I hate how you know what you did and how stupid you are and still you do what you do.

The Lord did told me that I need to always remember grace and not what is right or wrong. I don't know Yell...

I miss you and I am hella mad at you still especially with your easy to get lady.

I can hear you right now justifying yourself and how "but everything turned out to be good for you" "you are just like that because you are not ready" "you cant always have what you want MaiQui"

I can hear you saying things to make yourself feel better.

I hate it when I hear you say I always get what I want when I was the one who was left with nothing.

And speaking of ready, I guess you are ready when you betrayed me.

I just want to be okay when I remember you. I just want everything to be a faint memory...

Lord You promised freedom, please set me free... hear my cry Lord...