Wedding Planning

Its so weird to plan and prepare a wedding with you.

All my life, I was planning my wedding with Yell.

Now, sorry ah...
I am trying to envision everything with you.

Although it is one exciting and very challenging season. Thinking of marriage and all is too soon for me.

Although it would be a year or two from now.

Na uh

I wanna spend more time with Jesus.

I am just starting to love you.

All I asked KPizzles is the green to be in a relationship with you not marry you ASAP

Its like "Hello KP, we will be in a relationship."

"Cool, Spanish Service on 2016 then 2017 greenlight is yours and get married soon"

I am just like, that escalated quickly.

Zero to a hunnid foe realz

Like idk...

Honestly its been almost 2 years...
I moved on from being in a relationship, but the thought of marrying a different person is kinda... weird for me right now...

I am so used to see Yell there...

I don't want Yell to be there
Not anymore ever
I would rather die lol than marry Yell

But the thought of having someone else and not him... is weird for me....

I know you're saving up

But its too soon for me...

And I still have to go through a lot of healing...

Sorry this tainted everything and tons of things...

Everything scares the crap out of me.

The thought of planning my future with someone again. Building a life and everything with someone else scares me so much...

To put my security on someone else...

Again.

Terrifies me...

I am so not ready to get married.

I am just starting to love you.

I know everything is in snail time with me when it comes to you...

Please stay patient.
I am getting there...