Maybe I’ll guard my heart until you are sure

yah of course till God says so but I won’t even pray about it not unless you are certain.
I can feel that you are still here, its just idk...

I mean, I am still here too obviously its just I am not 100% in it too lol
I need to figure out what I wanted as well

Well 95% I am still here. That’s a huge percentage

After so many years you’re the only one that I am willing to take a risk for again
I’ve been hurt too many times but for you I am not afraid to try again

You made me hear the good in love songs again after being so scared for too long

THERE ARE THINGS THO THAT ANNOYS ME LOL

-like you like to go “(insert reputable jesus loving persons name here) says this”
Idk, I mean it coo they are your guide its just idk Holy Spirit and Jesus is the main guide tho
It don’t matter who interpreted it and what not
-exclusivity is a big thing for you

Here I am hating exclusivity all my life and here you are!

But whateva
Like I said I am still willing ahhhahahhhhah still willing to dive into it, fight for it, brave through it

But anyways,
I guess I’ll enjoy my friendship with you ng walang malixa.
I will just guard my heart until I am sure too 100% and if you are sure 100%
I’ve been though enough.
I don’t want to waste my time anymore

I still stand by what I said last year

If I would date you, I want you to be the one
If not, I’d rather just let it fade




I still hope its you tho but idk we’ll see

Honestly Speaking

If I would be very honest and transparent to myself.

I would say that I am still hoping and I still want to try. I am still wondering what could have been or if it could have been. I am still wondering if you are around.

Maybe its just all in my head but I think that you are still there, nde ka lang sigurado or walang plano na umabante. Pero you are still there.

I mean, I am still here too...

And I am in the same boat. Nde din ako sigurado and walang plano umabante pero conflicted.

Pag nakikita kita, you still make me melt LOL

Your smile (haaaaaaaaaaay)

I mean there are days that I wanna murder you kasi para kang tanga. Nde ako kakausapin parang inis na inis ka sakin, ISA AKONG NAKAKAINIS NA ORGANISM.

Tas mai mga moments na parang anjan ka pa, nagpapahiwatig.

Pero like I said, maybe its all in my head.

And if anything, ayaw ko xa maxado isipin. Andami ko pa gagawin shoes ko Lord.

I mean if it happens it happens if it doesn’t it doesn’t.

I am just saying, I’m still here and deep inside I am still hoping for the what might have been.

Well.

I want it to die.

I must let it die.

It will die.

I’ve been though enough.

I don’t want to waste my time anymore to someone that is not sure of me.

This is not the focus of my life right now.

YOU HAVE NO EFFECT ON MY HEART BOI BAI

its over.

Its been over.

It ended too soon

But the point is, it ended.

You are my forever KUYA.