Hi Lord :/

Well may pinagdadaanan ulit, mejo siguro malaki na issue baka nde.
Actually maybe, kasi mejo pinagiisipan ko to reconsider.

Or am I just running away again pag may mali?

But like is this really running away or choosing what I think is right.

Kasi yes, there is plenty of fishes in the sea, I can get any fish I want.
On top of that, I am okay being single forever too.

I can take care of myself.

I am not afraid of being alone forever.

But Jay is not like anything I have come across with.

Pati ung thought na yan Lord, yung thought na yan scares me.

This is like Daryl all over.


Yung the "and then he came..." guy.
Yung paniwala ulit saken na kaya ko ulit magmahal ng ganito.
Yung sabi ko na isang mahirap hanapin, someone rare.
Yung meron kami, mahirap hanapin, tas nahanap ko. Nasakin na.


Ewan, nde ko alam kung ganun din ba naiisip niya.

God, natatakot ulit ako, pero I want this to work so bad.
Pano pag eto ulit tayo. Pano pag nagpapakatanga nanaman ako.

God yung, bubuhos mo lahat, paglalaban mo, uulit ulitin mo na pipiliin tapos mawawala ulit.
God kahit ang saya saya ko sa kanya Lord.
God sa sobra ulit ng mga nararamdaman ko ulit, grabe ulit takot ko as in sobra.
Sobrang takot ko na parang mas mabuti na umalis na lang.

Pano pag makita ko nanaman ang araw na sasabihin saken na
"Sorry, narealize ko na ni minsan nde kita minahal."
or "Sorry Maiqui, I just woke up one day and I just don't love you anymore"


It's not like ung feelings ang main na problema...

Pero idk if I can be with someone na may bisyo.

Parang struggle ba talaga, parang nde siya humahanap ng paraan para tumigil, hinahanap niya ways para sabihin na tama ginagawa niya.

I feel like everything pwede namin maayos.

Pero maliban dun.



Actually pati yung, ewan feeling ko nde niya ko tanggap.

Akala ko tanggap niya ko, yung pagiging magulo ko pero nde pala.
Tas ako pa sinisisi na nagiba ko nung we were dating to now.


Do I even still feel safe around him?
idk..