I just reviewed all my blogs from the very beginning.

I remembered how MUCH I love you.
How MUCH I pray for you.
and how MUCH I desire to be that woman of God for you.

I always pray that you will be with God.
I saw what happened when we disobeyed.

It was great in the beginning but it slowly get bad because of our disobedience.
The Lord said wait, and we didn't listen.

I feel like, I was making process and he was already going to move in your life.
But then I came... and I made you stumble and stopped it for you.

I saw how God is not done with us yet, it's just we rushed into things.

I saw how I dreamed of taking you to bible studies and fellowships and retreats and hang out with my friends and talk about Jesus all day long.

I almost forgot about that.

I saw how much I missed your parents and how much I prayed not only for you, but for every single one of you.

I hope that this is the season that we are both starting over again.
That the Lord is really just in the process of shaping us.

I remember praying for you and saying that if you're not for me at least come back to me as your best friend. I thought that was some kind of wishful thinking, but I got something better.

I remember telling God that if you are not the one once you come back after that one year, I should not see a bit of me in you... but you came back wanting me more than before.

I remember just running God's race because I want to catch up with you, because I always see you as this super mature Man of God and you deserve a woman that is hidden in God's hands.

Maybe now... I'll just do my best to run as fast as I can to God and just hope that someday I will see you next to me.........

Someday....

Sana lang....

I will forever pray for you.
I will pray for your walk, every single day.
I will never give up until your heart is close to the Lord.
Or even if you already got closer to Him, I will forever pray that each day will be an opportunity for you to be closer to God.

If you are not for me...
just like how I always say in this blog.

If you are not for me...
At least I can be there for you through the prayers I will ask to the Lord for your life.

'cuz if you are not for me, I know you will be with someone else... and maybe I can't stand to see that day... so even if I am far away... I will still pray for you.




Maybe I should stop desiring you back...
I will just keep praying that your heart will be free and will always pursue God and have a fire for Him that the world have to see.

If you are mine, you will be mine.

But it is more important for you to have Him in your life.
So, I'll do my best to disregard any desire I have... to have you back....
and just pray that you will grow spiritually everyday
and reach your full potential as a Great Man of God.