Too much

I guess I will always be too much

aaand...

There was one who can handle the too much

There was one who wanted to stay forever

Even if I was super crazy

And my stupid ahh don’t wanna get with that

Here I am chasing a guy who doesn’t wanna deal with my extra self

He is not coming back

He’s decided

It costs too much to be with me

I am too crazy

Nobody wants us to be together

Odds are not in our favor

I have too much

It costs too much

I think he will come to the conclusion that its not worth it

I know he said that we should leave it open ended

But I am ending it

At some point

Soon.

I wanna end it today

But idk

Cuz I know myself

Once I make a decision I am gone forever

But I don’t want to put it on the side anymore

I wanna kill it

I don’t want him to have something to hold on to

I don’t wanna go where he decides to go

Okay.

Tonight let’s say that I am 98% declaring that I will do my best to kill it

And stop hoping for it

And he will be forever that friend that I was interested in that never happened