Am I being delusional?

Maybe I should trust what she's saying, I mean for sure he is not talking to her about it.

Should I even trust her?

It could have been that she say things unknowingly that it sounds horrible

She doesn't know how we are now

I tell her nothing but me trying to hold back and that's it

She speaks as if he doesn't care and that he is not around anymore

I am in it

I am experiencing it

Or was it all in my head.

I know that he knows that I am still here

I know that 100% and he is still here

Or was he just stringing me along to boost his self esteem

But he is not like that and I am the one that's in it. Whatever happens, I know what I am getting into and I hate people telling me how I should feel.

I see it in him

The way he looks at me

The way he talks to me

She just doesn't understand.

Or I don't understand.

Either way

I don't tell her anything

I know he doesn't either

She knows little about the new things thats happening

I'll enjoy what we have right now and I have no intention of moving forward with it, but I know that I am getting to know him and things are getting back to where we were

If it works out it works out

If it doesn't then it's gonna be redirected to the right one