God… :(

Feeling ko sinusukuan niya ko pero hindi.

God.

I mean tama naman madami din aayusin saken.

God… sabi mo.

Paulit-ulit.

Nu yun, ilusyonada nanaman ako ng paulit-ulit.

I mean may choice naman kami lagi.

God… isa nanaman ba na lesson si Anjero Lord… God andami namin pinagdadaanan ngayon.

God gusto ko lumaban.

Gusto ko maayos.

Feeling ko naman maayos namin to.

I mean I can’t control what he feels and his decisions.

God…

Normal ba to…

God, sabi mo…

Sabi mo…….

I trusted you.

Well I should always do.

I still do…

God kelangan ko kay Anjero magmature siya para maayos kami…

God I feel so HARD TO LOVE…

So HARD to choose…

All because of all the cards that life gave me.

Like its my fault na I lived in survival mode all my life.

Alam ko na nde nya intension na saktan ako ng ganun… lord…

Gusto ko din ng tahimik.

Gusto ko din ng masaya.

I feel like Jayro needs someone na perfect.

Someone na just the right amount of spice sa buhay. Someone na wala masyado napagdaanan. Someone na sheltered. Someone who have a normal life…

Choosing the one u marry is choosing who you want to do the hard times with and… I am just a hard thing to have… and… I might be too hard for him. For anyone…

Its easy for me to choose and love who I want…

I know naman na its hard to choose and stay with me…

God its just so heartbreaking to see na finally nagmahal na ko ulit… tas eto nanaman tayo…

Nakakalungkot Lord.

Sumuko na ko nuon.

Then Jayro came.

God I don’t know what would happen to me after this… kung maghihiwalay kami forever… pag nde kami magkatuluyan.

I don’t want to close my heart again.

I don’t want to put the walls again.

I don’t want to be taken over by fear again.

God…

God I want this to work out…