This time last year I spent this amazing christmas with you.

Now I am celebrating it with my beloved Master<3

At first, I honestly regret greeting you Merry Christmas because the way you respond is the kind of response that I don't want to see.

I thought you were in the Philippines!!! HAHA that's why I sent it... :\ damn it lol
The way you responded irritates me!!

How could you say it like that with a smiley and and not saying sorry for what happened before!!!!!!!!
I SO WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN YOUR FREAKIN FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's like, the mess that you did, didn't really matter to you AT ALL.
And knowing that you destroyed and DEEPLY HURT someone don't matter AT ALL.

It's like, "Oh, I'm ok so I don't care if I damaged anyone as long as I'm doing good I don't give a crap and it's been forever so I guess nothing matters anymore."

I felt so pathetic greeting you...

I know it's been forever but still....
It's like, oh it's over... finally... let's just forget about it like nothing happened.

I moved on and all and this is nothing about those "wanting you back" dramas. I'm so over that since the days of the dinosaurs LOL!!

It's just, as a person...
Do I really deserve that?
You're the very last person in the universe that I would ever thought that would do that to me.
I'm like worse that crap!
or any unwanted organism that is every created!
I know I'm not that talented, smart or good enough for your wonderful world wahwahwahwahwahhhh
and thank you for rubbing that to my beautiful face.

I don't even know why I did it...
I thought you were in the Philippines that it wont be sent to you >:(

Oh well...
but it made me feel better :)
way better.

At least you are now aware that I am alive lol

I kinda don't wanna do it 'cuz I feel like I'm degrading my entire being by doing it.
I feel like I'm the one that's going to get laughed at...

Its like I'm all "oooohhh I miss all of you guys to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" then you guys would be like... "oh, ok" :\

But I really do miss you guys to death. I know you guys don't.
But I really do, more than anyone could ever imagine.

Oh well,
God wouldn't want me feeling this way and thinking and saying these things to myself and to someone...

and, I've thought about it... and
I'm kinda happy that you received it :)

I really do want to greet you happy christmas :)

I found some little peace.

I'm sorry for all these thoughts Yell
I know it's just this one text oh goodness and I am over reacting TO THE MAX!! LOL!!!

but yea, I think that burden that I've been carrying for awhile now from you got lighter :)

I'm still praying that someday we could be friends again...
and I am happy to be the wala lang person :) at least I exist now and not a very unwanted organism :)

Merry Christmas Yell! lol :)