ALL IN

Hella ALL IN

The way he looks at me
The way he takes care of me

& nung sabi nia na he knows that I am still healing and very broken...

That's why he is giving me time to heal & gets mad when I entertain other guys.

Part of him of course is jealous lol
But he said that these men, what if they don't love God enough that they would decide to just make moves out of their own flesh. I am very vulnerable still, and guys know that & they most likely will take advantage of that.

& knowing Brian's BC days.

I really thought I was one of his girls that he lures too....

& pastors are really good with words and I really see that! LOL like he delivers things in the most attractive way. Choice of words always on point!

But you know... He's right if I am, we've been talking for this long already. He should have made a move to sleep with me, looooooong ago LOL

He said the desire is still there of course, but His love for the Lord is greater now.

& he said that there are more things that he likes about me than his physical attraction towards me.

(PSHHHHHH LOLOLOLOL)

He gave up so much for Jesus.
The party life
The girls
The sports car
The nice independent life

Adjjssjsjsjks
NO IM NOT ALL IN NO NO NO NO
JJSJDJNSJSJD

I'm just saying.
He is so encouraging.

& that he really understand the struggles of obedience.

& that it is important to submit to authority.

He knows that we are both not ready.
And understands that its hard not to give in and just not be patient and risk all of our ministries.

But he is helping :)
So we can obey.

Yesterday after Spanish BS
I saw a different Brian.

Brian is all in.
I am not.

& he knows it.

He said if we continue to obey the Lord will reward us FOR SURE.

We must stand firm.
For Jesus
For our Ministries

& he said.
Master first
Then Ministry.

Then Mate.

We are in the ministry level
Don't mess it up MaiQuiQui!!!!!!!!