:(

The Lord said to listen to His rebuke.

If we want to find Him
If we want His wisdom.
If we want to be fruitful.

We must respond to His rebuke.

This is the Lord's way out.

:'((

I hurt him...

"I'm okay, he is okay, we are not okay"

I miss you B!
But ugh, I guess this is fine.

I said I will follow wherever you lead.
I will go as far you go.

Its getting deeper
Its getting stronger
Really strong...

KP said I need to try too
I need to fight it too

I need to help Brian
We need to help each other

We can't mess up now

I just ugh but whatever the Lord did this for a reason.

I disappointed him :'((((

Nde ko naman inakala!
I just ate.
I thought he would trust me

But I do understand where he is coming from..................
I know why he is mad....................

He said it will happen again. :'/

To earn Brian's trust is so hard
And to lose it is SO easy.

Is that really how your past hurt you B

:(((((((

Its just God...
I can feel how HURT he is!
I felt it.
Brian cared....... A lot :'(

I'm all in
He's all in :'(((

Are we sowing the right seed?

Well, whatever it is. We are stopping it...

KP said if I can, I should stop it.........

:'(((

We can't its too early....

FOR BOTH OF US

its just God...
I miss him already, BUT ITS OKAY I WILL FIGHT IT.

He said he loves my hugs because it feels right. Ugh T_________T

And those eyes! The way he looks!
Brian! I hate this! SO MUCH

I AM SORRY

MY WORLDLY HEART IS SCREAMING LOL
PLEASSE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE

I REEEEEAAAALLLY REALLY WANT TO SHOW YOU WHAT I CAN DO & GIVE

I REALLY wanted to tell you how much I love your hugs too that's why I hug you 10000x before you leave.

I wanted to tell you how much I love your company.

I wanted to tell you how much I love your voice.

I wanted to tell you how much I love you boldness.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT TO KISS YOU.

I want us.

BUT that is me without the Lord speaking and without my guard.

I need to acknowledge God in all I do and guide my steps and do what is right before Him.

So I guess, I will suppress it all.

THIS IS NOT THE FOCUS OF OUR LIVES RIGHT NOW.

& Brian deserves his P31 and that is not me yet. He deserves his woman of integrity.

He deserves the best.

If I truly care for Brian, I will let this be.
I will let him go.
I will let him grow.

I will continue to run after the Lord.

Its just nice to see you sprinting around the crowd with me...

You know B.
I HATE THAT I LIKE YOU A LOT NOW.
I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.

So you know, I think... You got a little piece in my now....

And I have to surrender that.

I'm really really sorry for hurting you...
I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry, Brian.
I really am.

And I miss you a lot already.