End of week 1.

Today, I hung out with Troie again.

Today, I got my ministries back.
Back on my servanthood.
Church was VERY VERY WELCOMING.
Today made me feel that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.




I tried to hang out with Troie...
To see how it feels to be like Yell... with Jennifer...
idk... I'm trying to see if I can do what he did....



Troie's cool...
We get along...

He's smart but lazy -_______--
Always need my help, ugh.

I love how much he loves his broski
He loves his broski like how I love mine
Both are broski's are half but we love them as if they're REAL broski's.




I REALLY REALLY forced myself today...
Yah, lots of laughs...
But it's not Yell.......

Nothing compares...

Okay I get it, no other man can be like God.
I know what I need and need to pursue.

I know what I need to work on, I don't even know why I am using this dude lol

I know I need God... and idk maybe Troie is helping me... I guess...
Playing with fire to the max.


I need to get rid of Daryl
I need to get rid of Troie

I need to just focus on Jesus.



Daddy HATE HATE HATE HATE Troie too LOL
Nobody likes this guy hahahah

Before I see Troie daddy was like
"I don't even know why you even talk to this guy, after today no more" LOL

I even invited him to eat with us then daddy was just like. "NOPE" hahahahahahahaha




Well, based on all that I was just actually trying to see how Yell feels...

I tried to get all lambing on Troie...
We laid on the couch together.
Got super close in the dinning room.
(Ugh, I sound like a slut)

I even hawak his arm while walking.


Trying to be like Yell.....




I had intense feelings for Troie before too... but I already realized that I wanted Yell more...
I'm just scared that Yell won't realize what I realize....................





I really really forced myself to actually, AT LEAST, think that there is someone out there that can be more than what Yell and I had...............





I know, I know, focus on the Lord, focus on what He is calling you to do. lalalalalalala




Yell said, I just have to force myself... to move on.
That what I am trying to do.




I am doing my best not to look back.
Greater things are ahead of me.

And we will be nothing than what we used to be.








Troie is dating around too, but he said he is still not over with Tina.
He have this girl that he really likes right now, but still nothing compares to Tina.



I hope same goes to Yell..... when he sees other girls...
It's been a year for Troie and Troie still wants to be with Tina.






I'll just continue growing.
I'll run the race for the Lord.












I hope you did your QT today Yell.
I hope you find Christian friends soon.
I hope you miss me too.... :/








I am healing now :)
Everyone is saying I got SUPER BAD SKINNY.
But I am getting better now.
I just cried once today, but I am better :)


I am not hearing anything about you which is good.
My heart is whole.

















I hope you keep on pursuing the Lord.
Someday, I'll be back and we can be bestfriends again.