He still loves me.

You know although I really feel that we are not supposed to be together right now.
It is different.

Before when I was with you, the more I pursue God, the farther I am from you.
The more I grow in the Lord, the more I feel like I need to let go and leave you.

But now, I feel like I am getting more drawn to you the more I grow.
But in the right way.

I don't want to really put my hopes up, but that's how I feel at the moment.

We are not supposed to be together right now and I know for a fact the Lord will hate it and I will hate it if we get back together soon.

But I see you there again.
Not right now.




But later later later.
2 years from now, 3 years from now.

When everything is right.
When everything is fulfilled.



The Lord knows the desires of my heart.


I just have to obey & trust that the Lord knows what he is doing.