Moving on.

I'm still having my moments but I think I got this.

I will not say good night anymore, not unless he does.
Maybe when he does I'll just reply with a smiley face.

I will do my best not to talk to him as much.
I will not be too honest about my emotions anymore.

I am moving on.
I close my eyes and he is not there.

Maybe... I think.
idk.



I'm thinking about it....


Let's see...


I will graduate, be a successful professional, driving a nice car with my banging professional sophisticated mature woman personality AND an amazing servant of the Lord.

That's the goal.

Him, idk what he wants.

All I want for him is to be a man of God. All I want is a man of God.
That's all he lacks.

Okay let's say I made it, I succeeded. I am a pro successful amazing woman. k









idk... I don't see him there anymore.




Ya, it hurts.
But idk, maybe.

Maybe its because I see him as who he is right now...

idk, maybe.





But for now, he is not in my future.
And I am most likely not in his right now too.



I want to...
I really want to be with him.




I guess I really am just starting to move on...
idk, maybe when I see him with someone I will go crazy again.




But, I think I'm fine.






I feel like he is moving on too...
I feel like he is losing his love of me...
I feel like he doesn't love me anymore...







He doesn't care as much anymore.
Maybe he does, but he cares for me as his closest best friend...
Since we've gone through everything together...





Well, he said he doesn't love me anymore.
He said someone out there can love me more than he can.
He said I deserve something better than what he can offer.
and I heard that as "I deserve something better than a woman like Mike"







I guess... I'll just leave...







Maybe, I still love him.
Maybe, it's fading too...



Things are not like before anymore.
We are growing now.



I'll start unloving you now.
And expect a future without you, FEARLESSLY.