Today, I had a dream about you.

I knew it.

Look at these attacks.
They're on FIREEEE -_____-

I just wanna type it out lol I kinda wanna remember.

In my dream, it was Oct 20 and you're still talking about me to Mitzi and I saw your messages.

You said you still miss me and all.
And many other things, but I don't remember.
But I know it was still me.

You were sending her these long messages on how you still love me and how you are hurting and how are you suppressing it all since you want to see me grow.

And that night I slept over in your house too for some reason and I slept next to you.

We watched TV together like we used to
and I fell asleep next to you.

It felt so real...
I felt your embrace...
I felt your chest....
And your arms around me....

I remember in my dream I didn't want to be next to you, but you insisted.

And I remember in the middle of the night, you kissed my forehead like before...

Then when we woke up, we had breakfast together and decided to swim but the pool was dirty.

I asked Tita if we can swim but she said it was dirty so I suggested that you and I could clean it and we did.

Then in the afternoon there was a party.

Your parents were busy so it was just you and I who made it.

We were riding with Ate Marissa, Kaitlyn and Ate Carmen.

And everybody acts as if they don't know we ever broke up.

I saw your messages again and Mitzi said "Take her with you" idk why, but it was just a message that popped out of your screen.

Everything felt so real...

And I promise myself I will do my best to think about you less and less each day.

I hope this was real....

But I'm back to reality.
And I need to learn how to think of you less and less and less each day.

I have to accept that I will forever miss you.
But I need to stop dwelling on what used to be...

3rd week is ending...
45 or more weeks to go...